precious memories

guys/jerks ?!

2005-12-27T03:42:00.000-08:00

admire guys who ...
-have basic courtesy
-have good leadership , determination
-stike for the best
-are able to overcome hardship
-are not shy[hum ji , HAHA]
-have fashion sense
-are rich $$
-are brave
-doesn't act cute , cool , shuai
-hygiene
-are clean[no BO & BB]
-have attractive smile , nice eyes
-are not supersitious
-are not mummy boys
-loves his family
-are not crybabys
-are humorous
-are not FLIRTS[can't stand flirts]

note:i wasn't trying to be a flirt or trying to say i wanna hab this kinda guy for my bf or wadever. read the headings. ADMIRE guys who are... admire them onli. so dun start tagging me and start scolding me !! i noe my limits . i noe im not fit for those kinda guys who are 'perfect' ? i noe where i stand .

=)

2005-12-27T03:19:00.000-08:00

merry belated christmas !!
changed the skin.

christmas is over , new year is approaching. soon , real soon. haha. in just a few more daes time it will be 2o06 , a new year a brand new start. todae went for dance FINALLY we meet. BNW gathers at mac at 7:3oam. oh gosh , dead tired now. so happie together !! had mac breakfast thn chatted and headed for dance before we get late . off for dance practise . . . . . . . .

3daes ago , i some how happen to be at the hawker center , and he some how happen to be there too , and so we met. i doubt it was fate , it was just he and me some how hapen to be at the same place at the same time. haha. sounds confusing , no worries it doesn't matter .it isn't important. =)

school is starting , it means time to get nerdy , time to drop the holiday mood , time to stay focus on one paticular thing . STUDYING !! T-T but nvm , to be sussceful person hardship some before enjoyment. jia you peoples . mus hab the determination drive in us.

haha

2005-12-23T18:00:00.000-08:00

HAHA ! =)

i adores little kids. they are so cute , sweet and small in size. muahaha. shorter thn me. oophs. im being evil here. lalalla* i received 4 christmas gift lehs. =D thanks hunks & babes.
when i recover , im gonna to travel around singapore . haha. i hab been at home for 2daes le. did not step out of the house AT ALL ! T-T gross*
hmms , some many people are against me dropping A maths . sighs. wad should i do ? anyways , my dad dun support the idea of me studying A maths. his words make sense. he said ; i aren't good in maths , let alone A maths . plus i noe im not those study frecks . and A maths isn't easy. sighs. confuse wad should i do ? i dun wanna make the wrong decision , it concerns my future. i will make full use of tis 1week before school reopens. welcome to write in your comment . =)

lovee*

2005-12-18T17:54:00.000-08:00

HIS STUFF !! =D

it's just so interesting.
ATTENTION-im not in love with him.
=) be happie for me .
HAHA.

26o391

2005-12-15T21:50:00.000-08:00

it totally sucks. to be stuck at home. for once how i wished i had agreed to work .! maybe it's gonna be tough but i dun care, it gonna be so so so much better thn stuck at home. horrible. stuck at a home which once feel safe but not anymore. T-T i hab stopped toking to my elder bro. i dunno wad's wrong with him la. budden his over-reacting. wadd's his fugging problem ? can't he just cool down or clam down & forgib my younger bro. they stopped toking , me too. i dun wanna tok to a bro which is unresonable , unforgiving , selfish . he thinks he is the onli one suffering. but im suffering too , my mum , my dad . everyone. no more joy , laughter. he doesn't tok to anyone , not even answering my mother's question. i mean like who does he think he is. everyone mus please him. is not like he is a king , VIP. even if he is so wad? he is suppose to hab respect for my parents , if it's not for my parents will he be in this world ? use ur bloddy brain and THINK . and please la , stop being so full of your self , stop being such an selfish ass . you wouldn't gain anything.
it's heart-breaking to know tat it is happening to the closest people in my life. i spend 14 years of my life with them . from a infant till a teen. they mean a lot to me and i love them a lot. even if my guy gave up on me , my parents wouldn't & i noe tat. they led me to the right track in life , shower me with love , protection. wad more do i expect from them ? nothing more . i just wanna repay wad they hab done for me all this years . and wadd izzit. their greatest wish is for me to achive good result . but i had let them down again and again & again . OK , i admit and i noe tat im the stupidiest in my family. first major exam , PSLE , i let them down . first NA in the family. nobody asked how i feel , do you think i feel happie abt being in NA stream ? no i dun . i had to hide my tears when asked wad stream im in. i felt hurt , humilated to noe i belonged to the 'slower parth'. i lost my confident . and i noe how the others will look at me . 'look down' . isn;t it ? the thought of quitting school did occur to me . i did not noe why mus i study so hard . wad for ? is not like im gonna go all the way to U , i noe i wouldn't be able to make it anyway . why not just quit school and start working , at least my dad dun hab to work so hard to support the family. there is me to help out . why not ? it hab been tough on my dad to support a family . he had to work hard , v hard . i wan to help him , i wan to make life easier for him . he is getting older , everyone does . everyone age . i wan him to relax a bit , i wan him to enjoy his life instead of working hard everydae , creaking his brain stressing himself . T-T i realli do wan to help out .

shoes

2005-12-14T00:22:00.000-08:00

my school shoes . woot.
but ,spend quite a lot of money on it
just bought few daes onli and
the nike shoe turn
from white to YELLOW
oh no, i played in the mud.
but im too lazy to wash it.
just leave it like tat . HAHA

TODAY..
todae was horrible.
although i hab recover ,
no more fever
but my stomach still hurts
sighs, there was a fight between
my two bloody related brother.
it makes my mother's heart ache
mee too.my elder bro left home ,
actually i would too if it's me.
cos of my mother, always
sides my younger bro
no matter wad
i wonder why do my mother hab
to be like tat ? we are all her kids
why love my younger bro more?
i get v jealous , not once but
many many many many many
other times, hais. forget it.

now
im worried tat my elder bro
would get into bad company or
do any thing silly or sighs
i dunno. he isn't home , he ran away
he is angry , he isn't able to voice out
wad realli happen. my mother didn't
gib him a chance just start scolding him
realli very unfiar. he did not reply my
msgs. where is he ? please come home

my dad called , upon knowing tat
he sigh too. hais. i told him to
listen to my elder bro's views too
before scolding anyone or start
his lecture . to me both party is
at fault

i feared ppl to fight/quarrel
sigh. im afraid to see ppl ,
hurt each another , loud noise.
why ? why mus they fight?
can;t they sit down and settle?
can;t blame my elder bro for
getting so angry , my younger
bro's attitude sucks !!

SICK !

2005-12-11T23:46:00.000-08:00

the feeling of being sick totally sucks
but together with food poisoning is totally horrible !
it;s the feeling im experiencing now.
wth la .
blurish vision +hot feeling
+stomach pain + giddy
+every few min to the toilet
+headach + vomit + weak legs
crap ! i hate tis feeling.
will somebody save me.

it mus be something wrong with the chicken chop
awwww... hurts hurts ! my stomach hurts !
hurhur , my younger bro is even more serious thn me
poor little boi. his temperature is even higher thn mine
conclusion it MUS be the chicken chop
shouldn't hab eat it ! full with regrets !

muacks

2005-12-08T21:36:00.000-08:00

LOVE EVERYONE !

im dying for a christmas party
i wan one !
i wanna party till late with everyone ,
my dears , babes , $1gang , BnW

attention
XING YI & JASON TAN
all i wan for christmas is . .
-xiao xing's dvd
(the sis is out !)
-nike shoe
-nike bag
-check bag
(white&green) no more le T.T
-adidas jacket
-a pair of high heels
-black sweets(FIND IT)
-more hang outs
-chalets !
-mickey mouse tee
-converse shoe
-be a rich gal
-be a smarter gal
-able to control my bad temper
-EVERYONE TO BE HAPPIE !

hurhurs. im so high now !
dunno why , maybe cos
im thinking of the christmas party.
AH ! it will be so cool la.
suppose to be out now,
but i woke up too late . tat's me !!
tsk tsk . nvm i shall watch DVDs.
there are 5 of them left un watched
hopefully i can finish them in a dae. =)

no crying

2005-12-04T01:05:00.000-08:00

no man is worth my tears
it applies to you too.
i thought u were different from the rest.
SPECIAL
but i was wrong.
you were no diff from the rest.
but i aren;t gonna cry over you.
why should i?
you gave me empty promises
all were just sweet talks.
make me a fool
and let me get this straight ,
stop being so full of urself.
why should i gib in?
it wasn;t my fault
i said wad i felt like saying
if it hurts ya , thn TOO BAD =)
i treat ya just like a toy.
just like how ya treat me.
THE END.
good bye.

yesterdae!!
yesterdae!!
hang out with BnW !
they rawks! woot. had so much fun.
as usual sasa was LATE . aww
lol. but nvm it;s alrites. =)
had long john for lunch. *yummy
finger-licking good. hoho

off we head to ORCHARD
i wanted to take this chance
and grab myself for school
but went home empty handed
BUT
it was alrites.
it was well paid off.
cos i had lots of fun with the dancers , BnW.

[without min yi] kinda upset but NVM

we hab ya in our heart ,ALWAYS
hab a nice trip. do enjoy ur self .

continue . .
i aren;t gonne type out everything in detail
it;s troublesome and im lazy . hehes
me and sasa got HIGH
lol. went crazy . !
laughing and laughing all the way
thn ,
came a guy who FLEW towards her
LOL. i was shocked and
i shouted WOO
thn we started laughing AGAIN
but it;s kinda amusing.
hruhurs. our legs were tired
it couldn;t support our body anymores
dying for water and a place to settle down
not finished.

i love you all !
had sooooo much fun
youu all rawk
=D
shall hang out one dae again !

lovee u all !

2005-12-01T20:03:00.000-08:00

=) ytd was fun. everyone enjoyed themselve INCLUDING me.
it was a midnight gathering at town and sleep over at xing yi's house
i was dead tired when we finish our dinner
i was dying to get some slp, my eyes were half closed.
they ignored me and just went on shopping.
but lucky jason was kind enough to slow down and walk with me!
not like the rest. hurhurs.
i bought stuff like earings , wallet and a tiny little key chain.
it looks interesting so just bought it.
anyways i did not regret so it;s alrites. it worth it.
did not take any pics , cos my hp was down. BATT FLAT
humph! so unlucky. batt flat at tat time.
it was like finally they decided to settle down for a drink.
chatted andd joked for a while.
we were like teasing abt little bunny why didn;t he bring along his gf , fierce bunny(tat;s wad we call her)
the bunny couple. ! but they were loving lahs. happie for them .
if i;m not wrong they are together for 1year and so le bahs.
but im actually kinda surprise tat little bunny could stand her.
no offence , but she's real hot tempered la.
but she;s alrites as a friend to me.
thn took a taxi which i wasted 5 bucks on it although we spilt the cost
andd off to xing yi's house . . . . .

AT XING YI'S HOUSE
i was very curious abt everything in her house.
sooo , i ran from room to room and check it out.
but not to be rude , i asked for permission first
her house is real big man. everything is well placed , neat and tidy
xing yi's table was like oh gosh so dam neat papers were neatly arranged and ok everything is in place to where they belonged.
BUT
my table
is like a piece of shit. T.T papers dump everywhere , flying around
found at every corner. books not returned to where they belong.
i think it;s time i do some cleaning.

continue . . .
we took turns and took our shower
now clean and smell nice we settle on the sofa and watch dvd
i voted for horror piece
and i won!
we ended watching The Wig.
i gib 3 out of 5 stars. yes. it;s scary and nice effect but i couldn;t grab the theme of the whole story.
headedd for the bed
andd the next time i noe , SNORES covered the room. ><

=)

2005-11-29T18:00:00.000-08:00

you never go aways.
tell me tat love is not worth , going through
if it falls apart , deep in my heart will know
the onli dream tat matter had come true ,
all this while i was loved by you.
><

let bygones be bygones.
i hab learn to cherish who im and wad i hab
not to trust people so easily
although hurt deeply , i would let the broken heart rule me
IM ME! , im strong
love all my $1GANGERS/BnW/DEARS/BABES/FRIENDS/VAMPIRE !

would slap any guy who tells me tat he can;t live without me
he is lying. isn;t he?
wouldn;t he be dead by now??
sweet talkers SARKS!

i feel weak !
aching back. gross. it hurts.
mus adviod cold drinks le.
but one thing im sure, i aren't OLD.
still young and active
><

=)

2005-11-21T13:07:00.000-08:00

i hab deleted all myy past entries. reason , to hab a new start. rather a peaceful one. im sorriie if any of my recent post hab hurt any of you. alrites , it;s my fault i apologise k. still it;s up to u to forgive.